I’ve been in a mental pit the last two weeks. There’s an episode of The Simpsons where they spoof the movie The Shining that best represents what I’m feeling both externally and internally where Marge approaches a typewriter that Homer’s been working on…

And then Homer proceeds to go crazy

I did schedule an appointment with a counselor that specializes in working with cancer patients which is next week. I’m interested to see what comes out of it.

I’m incredibly bored being stuck inside which is causing me to go stir crazy while summer is slipping away. One thought crossed my mind the other day that there are people who refuse to vaccinate their kids which is a hazard for people like me with compromised immune systems. Coming to that conclusion has made me less combative with my parents on demanding to let me go out, but still it doesn’t make it any easier.

I’ve had a list of things to do for the last few weeks and I’ve slowly been chipping away at it because there’s really no urgency as tomorrow will end up being the exact same as today. Going to bed at 3am and waking up at 10 or 11am is just whatever because I have no events to be fully awake for besides going to Rochester for my appointments and even then, I’m just sitting in the car, the chemo chair, and then back in the car.

The repetitiveness of every day is just hard to deal with.

I bought a ps4 pro on craiglist and started a game called Horizon Zero Dawn on a Friday night. Finished the game in 47 hours over 6 days because why not? Right now I’m waiting for the new Spider-man game that comes out in 2 weeks.

Last year, I went to San Francisco to visit my family and interviewed my grandma on her life. She turned 90 a week ago and during the few days leading up to her birthday, I completed editing together the footage that I recorded of the interview.

Kind of interesting that she can sum up her 90 years in an hour and twenty minutes. If you’re interested in checking it out, feel free to skip around the youtube video.

I can’t believe that the Minnesota State Fair has already started. For those who didn’t know, my family had a booth at the fair selling imported hand made Chinese furniture for 33 years and 2 years ago, my parents decided to stop doing it.

Here’s a picture of my dad and me when I was really little and one from our last year of the fair.

I grew up working the fair, looked forward to seeing the other kids and their families at the other booths at the International Bazaar each year along with classmates and co workers who would stop by to visit. I’m very disappointed that this will be the first year I won’t be able to go. Hopefully my sister will bring me back a turkey leg or fried pickles when she comes next week and goes to the fair.

I feel like because nothing’s been really newsworthy, I didn’t feel like I had enough interesting stuff to blog about. I am done with round 3 of chemo. As expected, the neulasta shot gave me 2 days worth of bone pain. My skull, ribs, and legs hurt the most during that time. During my first booster Tuesday booster shot, I came home and got a fever at 100.3 and took Tylenol to get it to go down which it eventually did. This week I had my 2nd booster shot which caused my hands to hurt a lot.

Almost a week later I’m still feeling the discomfort. It feels like if you’re outside in the winter for too long without gloves on and your hands hurt because of the cold. My hands don’t feel cold but my joints feel so sore that when I picked up a pen to write a check yesterday, it hurt a lot. Kind of hurts to type on my computer right now too. Hopefully it’ll go away soon.