Ok guys, seriously…My tumor’s currently growing and is pressing up on my heart and thus reducing blood flow so it’s already under stress. I don’t think I can handle any more tear-jerking heart warming acts of kindness from all of you.
I got a call from a former classmate Abe who I haven’t seen in 2 1/2 years. He called me out of the blue to tell me “I wanted to know brother that you’re loved and that I’m here for you if you need anything.”
A very good friend, Augusto, moved to Wisconsin last year to work for Jack Links. He sent me a message saying that that I’m going to need protein to build up my strength so he sent me a care package of jerky.
My former roommate Alex has been featured in my travel blogs before when we went to the Philippines and when we went to Japan. He’s so self-centered that he couldn’t stand not being mentioned on my blog and so he showed up with his girlfriend Stephanie (who I also lived with) holding this because he knew that I’d be spending some time in this hospital. So here you go you bastard. You’re in my blog, I hope you’re happy now.
Seriously guys, this isn’t a competition, but if you’re all trying to win my award for “Best Friend” I’m not going to stop you 😀
I told Joanna how crazy people have come forward to show me their support. She said that this is just karma coming back to me.
My friend Kathleen said “WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND BITCH. Maybe if you stop being so damn considerate you won’t have this problem. Duh”
My friend and co-worker Sumana said, “Cuz you’re not a jerk and you’re practically everyone’s friend at work. Get used to it. You’ve been there for the people you care about and it’s time they do the same…it’s the outcome you get for being a generous person. If you didn’t want this u should’ve been a jackass.”
All this support, outpouring of love, and your prayers for me and my family have been really amazing.
Onto the regular updates…I met up with my friends Tom and Nick for lunch yesterday and had to walk part of Centennial Lakes to get to Tom’s office. I started at the bridge on the right and walked to the left side of the picture below.
I don’t know if it’s actually my body starting to deteriorate because of the tumor or my brain reacting to what I know now, but I got tired and had to catch my breath just from that short distance walking my normal walking pace. I had to slow down to the point where the old ladies walking their normal routine were passing me by. A year ago, I was biking 10 miles to and from work in less than 40 min…wtfff
Last night, the gravity of things finally began to hit me when I tried opening my bedroom window. Joanna stopped me reminding that I’m not allowed to carry anything over 10 lbs. I love cooking and was hoping to do some during my free time. Right now I can’t even go to the grocery store because I won’t be able to carry my grocery bags. What will my life be reduced to when I go through recovery and I’m physically unable to do something simple like get out of bed for several weeks?
I told my sister that my coughs are getting deeper, I even coughed up a little blood this morning which has led me to imagine the tumor wiggling around getting cozy saying “Screw you, this MY home now.”
I’m hoping to get my mind off things this weekend while I play this waiting game until Monday when I get my results. A co-worker suggested I check out The West Wing which is one of his favorite shows. I told him that I’m not really feeling that heavy of a drama and might consider a show that’s a little bit lighter like this one I saw on my suggested shows called Breaking Bad? From what I’ve heard, it’s a really popular show where a high school chemistry teacher reunites with a former student to “break” his “bad” study habits and ignites his love for science.